Thankful

Awww.....where to begin?

 First, of all it's November. November, how bitter sweet you are to me. First of all it's the time to be thankful as we will be celebrating "Thanksgiving" later this month. I am thankful for God sending his Son to die on the cross for my sins. I am thankful for his love, grace, and mercy. I am thankful for my parents. I am thankful for my two brothers. I am thankful for my husband. I am ever so thankful for my two little boys. They are my life. I love them so very much!

Second, November is a month that I once thought would be the most dreadful month for me. I suffered a miscarriage in November of 2006. I can remember thinking that November that I would never be a mother. I thought, I have let my husband down, because he will never get to be a dad. I thought, I have let our parents down because they will never be the grandparents that they lone to be. I can remember that November as we said our Thanksgiving prayer at my parents I had to excuse myself afterwords to dry up the tears. The prayer my father prayed to help us become parents I thought was completely useless {I know, how selfish, but that's how I was feeling}. I can remember earlier that month thinking, oh next Thanksgiving we will have a little 4 month old that will get to try my mom's delicous mashed potatoes for the first time. But the follow Sunday, I went to church. Not really feeling like it. I can remember feeling as I was getting dressed, this is such a waste of time. Little did I know, God would give me a message, an answer to my biggest fear and prayer. That evening at church the guest preacher, preached about "There's a first time for everything." As he was preaching I have selfishly admit I was thinking, "why did I bother coming today, I should have stayed home and rested." After his sermon he ask for me to come for prayer. As he began to pray, he told me, "God said, for the the first time ever you will be called mom." WOW!!!! Those few words seemed to make my horrible November a whole lot better.

Third, although I thought November would be a dainting, horrible month that I would never be happy during God's timimg was impecable and would make November one the best months ever in 2007. Because I would be a mom for the first time ever in November. That's right our first little bundle of joy was due Nov. 19, 2007. I experienced the most amazing life experience on Nov. 16, 2007 at 11:43pm. I gave birth to a beautiful, chubby cheeked, 8lb 4oz. boy, Memphis Carter. I never knew love could be so stronge. I never knew I was that stronge. Now, November is one of the months that I look forward to every year.  I get so excited about planning his birthday parties, and to see his little face light up when he gets those gifts he has been asking for, for months.

I have completely lost my mind and agreed to have his 4th birthday at Chuck E. Cheese. Yes, next Saturday we will be heading to Chuck E. Cheese to have the most rad Star Wars birthday party that has ever been thrown at Chuck E. Cheese. He's getting so big. He doesn't want to watch "baby cartoons" such as, Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, Dora, Seasame Street. He is now pooping in the potty! His head is still so big that when he lays flat on his back he can't pull himself up. He wants everything he sees on t.v. He loves to eat bologna, hotdogs, chicken nuggets, candy, drink milk, and his favorite candy, "KIT KAT", he also likes Lucky Charms cereal.

Cruz, ask daily for a baby, he is potty trained, and refuses to wear anything that isn't pajama's. He thinks he should only wear mis-matched pajamas. He always looks like a hobo. He sings and has started liking me to read to him. He likes the "Llama llama" books.

Until next time.....