Family Fun Night

We had our first "Marlow Family Fun Night" last night. Memphis has been asking for a few months now if we could have a family fun night. So, last night we did. We had Papa Johns XL cheese pizza and went to the park for a little fishing. We didn't catch anything:(. But we did have fun and enjoy each others company.  We will be having our 2nd family fun night next Thursday. Memphis wants to play games. I ask him what game he'd like to play(totally thinking I'm going to have to go buy a board game), and he tells me he wants to play "tag your it". Oh Lord, I'll be in the hospital having this baby if I don't talk him out of it. LOL! I'll be sure to try and remember to post pictures from last nights family fun night and blog about next weeks.

Maverick update, he's growing good and I am dialated 1/2 a centimeter and 50% effaced at 35 weeks. I can't wait to see him. In my last ultrasound they said he had hair, which you could see swaying in the fluid, and he has a dimple in his chin!

Pondering....

I need to stop that....Pondering! Although, when I ponder I do blog, but I haven't decided if that's a good thing or a bad thing! I guess since Memphis completed Pre-K it's just something I can't help but to do. Sit around and ponder.

You date, fall in love, and get married. You then realize that you want something more. You begin to lone for that newborn to make your heart and life full. Sometimes people wait what seems like forever for those two pink lines, and other times it just happens as soon as you decide you want that newborn.

You bring this sweet little angel home, and you think of all these great things that you hope to happen to your newborn. And in the blind of an eye it's time to sign that baby up for school. Most people decide that sending their child to pre-k is the right thing to do. I, however, wasn't one of those people. I waited right up until that last minute to sign Memphis up. He was smart. He knew all the education things that you would learn in Pre-K. My biggest thing about sending him was to get that interaction with other children. You see, as a child I was painfully bashful. I didn't want him to be that way. Oftentimes, I find myself feeling that same bashful feeling. I hate it. I must say Pre-K helped Memphis with that. Now Pre-K is over, and I find myself thinking, "should I have sent him." That was the last year that I could have had with him. Those three little years went by so fast when I had him at home all to myself. Right in the middle of his summer break I'm going to rock his world by bringing a newborn. I feel like that in itself makes me a horrible mom. And Cruz, what does that do to him? He's been the baby for 4 years. He's had me all to himself.

I can't help but to cry when I'm by myself. Schools out, five weeks later we'll be adding a new addition to our family, and then in 6 weeks later school starts back. Not just for Memphis, but Cruz too. I'll have a Kindergartener and a Pre-Schooler! Where has time gone?!

I must say that truely feel like my pregnant days are over. I love being pregnant as horrible as I feel and as bad as I get sick. I never thought I'd have this feeling, but I feel totally content with three boys, and the third one hasn't even got here.

These next four and a half weeks I am going to embrace them. These are the last four and a half weeks that we will be a family of four, that I will be pregnant. I ponder will my boys be as close as they are now after Maverick comes?

I must learn to embrace these new challenges. Ready or not, it's summer break I have to embrace it and make the best of it. Ready or not, we're having another little boy. Ready or not, God has a plan for my little family and it will all work itself out in the end! We'll all be alright.

So, two blogpost in one day! Oh my!! Blame it on the hormones. Yes, I'm still crying. lol I just had to blog this because it was way to sweet to ever forget. But here is a conversation that Memphis and I had earlier:
Memphis:Mommy, I love you.
Me: I love you too, Memphis.
Memphis: I will always love you Mommy.



First Day Of Pre-K.



Last Day of Pre-K.

Time. Where Does It Go?

I'm sitting here balling my eyes out! We just got home from Memphis's Pre-School end of the year celebration. I can't believe that just 9 months ago I was balling my eyes out because he was starting school. My only question is, as I sit here crying and pondering, where in the world does time go? It seems like just yesterday I was taking a positive pregnancy test to Brandon with big ole tears running down my checks. It seems like only yesterday we were bringing this little 8lb. bundle of joy home with us, and me thinking, "oh I got this" when really I laid in the bed with Brandon and Memphis crying my eyes out because I really had no idea what I was doing. When I look at Memphis I can't help but to swell up with joy, happiness, and tears. He has the biggest heart. He's so kind, gentle, and smart. I love him more than life itself. He's so generous. He is always sharing with his brother when brother is whining, Memphis just always thinks of Bo first. I can't believe that these past 5 years have gone by as fast as they have. All the tears and prayers that I shed for this little boy to be brought into my life finally became reality, and they are slipping by so fast. I love him more than I could put into words. He's the sweetest little thing. He's more than I ever imagined him to be and then some! I thank God so much for placing him in my life. I know before long he won't want to sit in my lap or go everywhere I go. He'll soon be embarassed by me. That's ok, though, that's part of growing up. I'll just some where quietly and cry. lol I'm so proud of the little guy he's growing up to be. I pray that God keeps him safe and he always keeps God close to his heart. I pray that he continues to be kind hearted, a good kid, a good student, and grows up to be a nice man with a great career. I know he can do anything he sets his mind to. I must go now, the tears are so heavy that I can't see my typo's. Memphis, mommy loves you! I am so proud of you. I just wish I could keep you little forever!